Dearest Beautiful…

I feel as though you mistake me for another. For I seek what most men and
some women for that matter, take for granted. In my experience(s), I’ve come
across women who fear what feels right. They run from good intentions and
efforts that say, I do, I will, for always, forever…

I could never imagine nor fathom the idea of placing my heart on the line
only to present to you a false image of the future. That to me is a waste of
time that would only serve the purpose of leaving us both exhausted. Sure,
unforseeable things happen between two people but it’s always been my belief
that once a man is blessed with commitment from a woman, that’s when the
real fun begins…

A toy or a quick thrill?
Dearest, as I said, you mistake me for another. I see and even know many who play such games to fulfill what you accuse me of. At times because of disappointments in my own relationships, I too have considered going that route. To become a man interested only in quick thrills, mindless pursuits and efforts where paydirt is another notch on my
manhood. Crazy thing though; I once discovered what I’d always believed in my heart to be true and you know what that is? In a committed relationship, love gets better; it has
purpose and the sex? Very hot! Within the realms of commitment, a man is blessed
with the opportunity to learn all of your pleasure zones from head to toe; physically and mentally… I crave that sort of committed exploration.

Man to woman-
I present to you my own nakedness and truth for everyday I fight the very
same skepticism that you carry so close to your heart. This feeling which
causes you to doubt and question a man before he can even utter words like
“how are you today?” It hurts my heart to have that which I refer to as the
most beautiful blessing on earth(Woman) convict me without so much as having
the courage to investigate my heart on a personal level.

That question you place before me; “what is it you want from me?”
I sigh whenever I hear it. My adult life flashes before my eyes because it conjures up the disappointments that I too have suffered under the guise of love. I dont fear trying again but I do fear that after you’ve witnessed the ease in which I’m willing to share my heart and soul, you will then take it for granted or run because it’s not what you’ve become accustomed to when dealing with a man.

What is it that I seek?
A chance without early conviction… Run from me if I treat you wrong or curse me out but if I show to you sincerity, passion, kindness, comfort, support, honesty, and a desire to build something together based solely on the merits of my actions; reward me with your own sincerity. Don’t run if I treat you right… Don’t walk away from the possibility that forever could potentially be right here with me… I’m not afraid. I dream about it all the time…

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V. Anthony Rivers is the author of Daughter By Spirit and Everybody Got Issues and the upcoming My Life Is All I Have. He has also contributed to various anthologies including; Sistergirls.com, Chocolate Flava, Truth Be Told, and Love Is Never Painless. A native of Los Angeles, California he currently resides in Van Nuys, Ca.
Blog: http://vanthonyrivers.blogspot.com
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